Another day in the life of lisalee. Yesterday was the day of silence. I participated, and I protested with my friends downtown, standing on the corner of the busyest street downtown. Alot of people honked, i guess that was cool. I came to school with duct tape over my mouth and lips drawn on it with nail polish. Alot of homophobic bastards made fun of us, calling me gay and crap, but i don't care. I think it helped a little to have people know that they're supported. I told my friend that I'...

Well it's raining out tonight. It's been raining for the past three days. But even the rain is no comfort for the incomplete feeling in my gut that was there for about a couple of weeks now. It hurts a little. A little more each day. This is the first time that the rain hasn't made me feel good. It still hasn't worked. My heart has been broken and it's not healing like it usually does. My porceline heart has always survived little cracks and punctures, but not like this. He split it in half t...

Don't tell me what's on your mind Don't make me think you love me Don't tell me that this is forever, Please don't tell me that you won't break my heart. No one knows what will happen until it does. No one knows when they will die until they do No one knows that they love someone until they know for sure what love is So don't tell me beautiful things that will make me melt as we dance to the prettiest slow song known to man On this floor of smoke and balloons Don't talk Let's...

Summertime is finally here. I've been having so much fun. The other night was one purely out of the movies. It was much more fun though. All that day was sunny and beautiful. The baseball field over the lake was brisk and pretty. My favorite cousin in the whole world came back from st. louis and was spending time up here, but that's not the fun thing. I had woken up with no real thought comming to mind except for my daily horiscope and my chihuahua needing a bath. I took a bath myself, an...

Hey, i hate it when all the people around me change while i stay the same. My cousin has developed in mind as well as body. What ever happened to the girl who begged me to tell her stories, who wanted to grow a puppy farm? I know, i know, people grow, bla bla bla. BUT WHY COULDN'T SHE JUST BE A LESBIAN? I seriously could deal with all this puberty talk alot easier if she were a lesbian. I just can't see her liking the same things that i do. i don't even know why i have such a wierdness funk o...

It's really funny how one simple thing can totally screw your good mood out of existance. I was having a great day so far. I woke up, had Special K, my mom told me that my cousin, Jesse, is going to bring me to Germany for 2 weeks this summer. I'm applying for classes in college (when your in high school, you can get classes for FREE!) I'm applying for psychology, anthropology, and photography. I just got into photography when my mom brought out her old 70's professional camera that she used...

Everything seems SOOO incredibly new! I don't know why, I'm just feeling great! You know that rush that you get when you wear that skirt a little too high and that shirt a li'l bit too low? Even if you are just playing with the men's minds, it's fun to get whistles when your walking down the damp sunny street downtown. Guys honking at you, you look super offended, but inside you just kinda smirk... Ladies don't smirk, so that's why you do it inside. Then, I was walking through this crowd at...

Well, today was fun. Yesterday was fun. But just now was just terrible. Why does everything insist on crushing me. Just when I start thinking about how beautiful life is, it just slams in my face. I hate it now. I wish this pain would just end. Well, today wasn't a very good day. Yesterday I went over to my half sister's house. I haven't talked to her since i was 10, and after our first visit, she never called me back. Well, you know those goals that you set for the things that you want to d...

Why does this always have to happen to me? I have been a good person throughout my life. Am I just prone to hurt? I knew the first time that I talked to him that it would end just like it began. I knew that he was too good to be real. I knew that I wouldn't be able to satisfy him. Just when I finally found out what real love is, it shot me down. It killed me inside. I hate everything about this stupid emotion. Love killed my mom just like it killed me over and over again. He said he would b...

The act of being together. The electrodes pulsating through my body over a simple stroke of the hand. My cheeks hurting from the happiness that you brought me. The whole world not being able to touch us, we are now gods in our own universe. Nothing can hurt us here. Not with each other. The act of possessing and being possessed. Of taking in every detail of you and wishing that I had more than five senses to take in the very essence of you. Trying to control my mind of all the possibilities th...

ok, I am so extremely sick of everyone saying crap about gay marriages. First off, this is just 2004's version of the mixed race marriages ALL OVER AGAIN. Man and man, or woman and woman have just as much right in this world to get married as Blacks and Whites do. It doesn't matter WHO you are, just so long as you are responsible enough to commit to the marriage, and know fully well what it means. Now, i know that the republicans are saying stuff back like "we have to keep our marriages sacre...

Falling for a boy? Falling for a girl? What does it matter? It's gonna end anyways, so what's the use? What, do you think your gonna be together forever? What a laugh. Don't you know that love isn't real? Whether it's just a certain degree of lust, or the convincing yourself that it's true because your sick of that lonely feeling. The possibilities of excused emotion are the same, it's just all that you persieve that makes all of the difference in the world. And when his fluids are in my body, o...

Forever plagued with the disease of the outsiders. The act of being different, of being just what i wanted to be, has come at the great cost of being forever alone. No one here, except for my mom that is, lol. What kind of life is one spent in isolation? I guess it's all for the best, for they always go away sooner or later, and even if their one of those few that stick around, some one will die first. And then ur off to a new life, in all of its glory and torment. Emotion sucks so much. It ...