Falling for a boy? Falling for a girl? What does it matter? It's gonna end anyways, so what's the use? What, do you think your gonna be together forever? What a laugh. Don't you know that love isn't real? Whether it's just a certain degree of lust, or the convincing yourself that it's true because your sick of that lonely feeling. The possibilities of excused emotion are the same, it's just all that you persieve that makes all of the difference in the world. And when his fluids are in my body, or hers, for that matter, it twists my mind, and i get so confused, so i bash my head against the wall until i start bleeding, but their still on my mind. I realize that even when I put myself in a concussion, i'll still be thinking of them. Yea, their fluids in your body is like an injection of some kinda drugs, and you get addicted, and they just think your easy, but you just need to get your fix of them. Oh well, at least i know that i have problems, and thats the first step, isn't it? to admit that you have the problem(s). Well here are mine, I'm stuck on this guy that doesn't even remember me from the three years that i last talked to him, I'm fully medicated on Zoloft, and I'm thinking he just gave me a placebo, cus nothing is happening, no one is able to go tubing with me this weekend, so that means i'm stuck in the house with nothing but homework, and on top of all of that, all the world sees me as is some dumb naive girl who isn't worth taking seriously. Sick of me being so "self obsorbed?" well deal with it, or just don't read this. It's not like I'm forcing you to go through this, your doing it yourself. And for those who don't know what I'm talking about, just ignore my constant ramblings. Time for bed, so goodnight to you... Your Tortured Soul, Alonia Demonia