sadness consumes my everyday, and i am sick as hell of teachers who dont have anything better to do than be total yuppie freaks with the "stick up there" walk. If they ever were bonified teens, (nerdy little straight a students DONT count) then they would know y i act like i do. They never would understand any aspect of my life, and just because they have no worries, doesn't mean that i dont. I am at risk of flunking math, and all that anyone can say about it is "try harder" and while they're up there talking all this bs, i just try my best to zone out before i slap them in their plain little simpleton faces. Ever just want to hit someone just for existing? well i was close to doing that today, it's just so frustrating to try hard at school, and have it all blow up in my face. And the little yuppie prep children find it soo amusing that im there struggling. Just because they have no life except for school, they want to take it out on me by giggling while i sufficate like a fish out of water, just trying desprately to breathe, and they think its funny to see my struggle, flopping there, helpless, hopeless, and not all there. The difference is that fish end up letting it go sooner or later, but not me. Their suffering is ended within a matter of minutes, but me? a matter of months, with little 90 day breaks, but i always have to come back to suffer, and so i have done. Suffered. and i would want to end it so bad, but then they win. no i will never let them win.....never.......